Our days lately..

We have really tried to make the most of this interesting season for our son. He has his bad days and his good days but overall it seems like he has adjusted to his cast and has learned to go with the flow. I'm so thankful for his happy spirit through trials and so thankful that he is feeling better. We have gone to movies at the movie theatre, have eaten countless sno cones, played with trains and cars on the floor for hours, played golf with daddy, we have watched lots of t.v. and movies, read tons of books, gone through flashcards and played games, been on walks in the stroller and had many family nights on mama's big bed watching a movie and wrestling with daddy. All in all we have had a good week and we are thankful that he is getting around easily now. We are about to go in for a new cast and Sawyer told us he wanted a blue one. Hopefully that's an option!

Yes he has his passy! You would give in too if you had to make your 2 year old lay down for an hour to ice his leg. We have had many passy moments in the last week b/c I don't feel like fighting that battle along with a broken leg. 

 Sno Cones!! Mommy's favorite thing EVER!

We have cooked pancakes almost every morning this last week together. He likes cracking the eggs and is actually pretty good with it. 

Seriously?! How sweet and happy is this boy? So proud to be his mama. 

My arms and back have been killing me since this all happened so my sister suggested the Ergo baby carrier. We just got it at the end of the week so I haven't gotten to use it much but I think it will come in handy while we are in Florida. With this thing he can go on walks on the beach now!

This weekend we celebrated Father's day with a round of Golf on Saturday morning (which is Sawyer's version of heaven) and then we met up with some friends at the Blagg's Ranch. It was a great weekend!

Sweet babies. 

So that is our life in a nutshell right now! I am now getting ready for our big trip to FLORIDA and we can't wait to get on the beach! 

Happy Belated Father's Day

We were out of town for most of the weekend so I haven't gotten around to catching up on blog posts.  I had to brag on my husband/my baby's daddy in a quick post in honor of Father's Day yesterday. He is the most selfless man who not only wakes up at 6 am everyday to be at work and provide for his family but he gets home from work at 5 pm and spends every evening taking care and investing in Sawyer. He has always been the one who takes over when he gets home and I don't know what I would do without him. I knew Andrew would be a good dad the minute I fell in love with him but I had NO CLUE that he was going to be this good. Andrew's bond with Sawyer makes my heart just fall deeper in love with him as my husband. We love you babe! Thank you for all you do in our family, Happy Father's Day!

Already looking up!

We just got back from the doctor and Sawyer did so great during his X -Rays. They unwrapped his leg and  it was pretty swollen but he never even cried while they worked on it. So Proud! The good news, is that his leg is still broken in the same place and is looking good so far. We will go back in a week to get a real cast after the swelling goes down. The good news about this cast is that it will come right below the knee so that hopefully he can move around a lot easier and maybe even get to walk in it, won't that be nice?! I think that will make this so much easier if he can get around by himself.

We had an awesome night of sleep last night! He slept through the night and I was asleep by 8:30 and slept until 8:00. I seriously feel like a new person. I can handle this "hard" stuff if I am rested, so I'm praying that he continues to do good in the sleep department with this new medicine.  So thank you if you said a prayer for our well being yesterday b/c the Lord heard them!

Sawyer's getting around a lot more today! Here is a little video I took this morning. Pretty cute!

A little good A little bad

We had the best day yesterday. Since the day before was so tough we thought that it would probably be good to get Sawyer out of the house and occupy our time. We went to church and we enjoyed worship all three together with our friends and then I took him out in the stroller, while Andrew enjoyed the sermon. We walked around the church, threw rocks and used their swings. It was perfect bc we could see all of our friends and we got to meet up and eat P.F. Changs all together. Sawyer had the best morning. He woke up from his long nap and we set up his big Geo Track in the middle of our living room and he played with that for a good hour 1/2, he ate a good dinner and had fun playing with us on our big bed watching a movie. So all in all I was so encouraged yesterday. That was until 30 minutes after we put him down for bed. We put him down with his Tylenol with codene around 9:00 and he fell asleep for 30 minutes and then began waking up every 20 minutes crying out in pain, grabbing his leg, ALL NIGHT until 7:00 this morning. He was in so much pain and there was nothing we could do. We just put him in bed with us and tried to comfort him and sing to him and then after crying, screaming and throwing his body all over the bed he would calm back down and fall asleep for twenty minutes. I on the other hand did not get one wink of sleep. As soon as I was about to fade off he would wake up crying again. It was absolute misery watching him suffer like that all night long.

So here we are again with a new day and with a new definition of "hard". I am now functioning on no sleep with a sleep deprived, handicap and needy 2 year old and I am wondering how I am going to make it the next four weeks. From the beginning when this all started we were so thankful that this was just his leg and it was nothing life threatening. After our other experiences I thought, "I can handle this b/c his life is not endanger and it will heal." I was wrong. This is hard and there is no way to sugarcoat it.   I'm praying extra hard for strength from above and for patience from the spirit, otherwise I will be a madwoman in no time at all! I know that this is SOOO temporary and for that I say "Thank You Jesus!" but in this moment I am still adjusting, coping and here to say that this plain sucks.

On a positive note, we went to the doctor today to get more medicine for night time. I'm praying that this will do the trick tonight.
On another positive note, Sawyer has taught himself how to scoot across the living room floor to his different toys. It's pretty sad but makes it so much easier on us.
Tomorrow we go back to the doctor and they do another xray and will most likely do another cast. We are hoping for more information and answers.

 We gave him his first bath last night. He was so happy to be clean that he didn't care about the ghetto trash bag wrapped around his leg. 

 Throwin rocks while Daddy was in church. 

Two mornings ago this is how we woke up! It was so relieving to see him happy after the horrific night before. 

Thanks for letting me vent! I know it will get easier and I know that God is here the whole time helping us through. I couldn't do it without him. 

Update and slight pity party

Last night everything happened SO FAST that I think I went to bed in shock. I mean I sat in bed so confused how within 2 seconds something like that can happen and it changes the course of our entire summer. I'm praying this experience doesn't turn me into a "control freak" mom, b/c I can't imagine if it had been his head or if anything worse was to happen to him in that scary moment. Sawyer is "all boy" but recently I have noticed how cautious he has become. When he was a 1 year old I thought I was in for it b/c he had no fear. But in the last 6 months he has developed a sense of caution in his life which I have been grateful for. I keep thinking that if only I didn't push him to ride in those cars this wouldn't have happened, obviously he was scared for a reason. But I also keep praying for God to turn my thoughts like that off, b/c what's done is done and I only make myself sick thinking about all of those things that I have no control over. 

Sawyer slept pretty good last night with hydrocodone in his system. He wimpered throughout the entire night but stayed asleep until about 2 when he needed more medicine. I put him in bed with me and he kept wimpering quietly "Owie, car. Owie, car. Owie, car" basically until he fell asleep. I sat there and was holding back tears the entire time b/c I hate to see him suffer. He woke up in pretty good spirits and I thought it was going to be easier than I had imagined but we soon realized differently. He has no desire to get off the couch or off our laps. He has had moments of smiles but for the good part of this day he has acted like he is in pain and mad. I also think the medicine is hurting his stomach b/c he won't eat. We have watched movies, read books, we went on a walk in the stroller and then sat on a blanket outside and through it all he has been such a trooper. I can't imagine how frustrated he already is that he can't take that silly cast off. I have had a little pity party already today b/c I am just trying to picture what I am going to do with him these next few weeks. I hate that he can't go do what he wants to do, so as his mother I want to come up with the best ways to make him happy and comfortable. If ya'll have any good ideas, please send them my way! I have been brainstorming all day. 

Overall the feeling that I feel right now would be "disappointment". I'm disappointed that I am having to sit here yet again and watch my son suffer. I am disappointed that I can't fix it. I am disappointed that I can't rewind time and prevent the accident. I am disappointed that he won't be able to enjoy the summer like we had planned. I am disappointed that my entire family is going to Florida in 2 weeks and we are going to have to entertain Sawyer from the sidelines while everyone else plays in the water and in the sand. I'm disappointed that after everything Sawyer has been through this year that he has to spend the next 30-40 days of his life sitting on a couch with his leg propped up in a big cast. I hate this for him! I know that this next month will pass by fast and I know that we will make the best of it, but in this moment I am sad. I still praise God in these times b/c I know that these accidents and these trials only make us stronger and grow us closer to our Lord and Savior. 

Thanks for your prayers! 

Another trial

What started out as the perfect summer day has abruptly ended with a major turn of events! Sawyer was playing with our neighbors which we have done for several weeks now. He has been too timid or scared to ride on their toddler cars and today he finally got braver and got in with one of the little boys. I was encouraging him bc I knew he'd love going on rides. He was climbing in the car from the back and the little boy driving didn't know that he was climbing in and drove off, Sawyer flew off but his foot was caught in the seat long enough to do damage. The minute it happened I knew something was broken. I have never heard him cry like this before. Ugh! Can you say misery?! As he continued to scream cry we realized we needed to get somewhere to get it x-rayed. Luckily our awesome neighbor works in orthopedics with the razorbacks and he got us in quickly at the specialty hospital down the road. thank you Matt! We were taken care of so quickly.

Sawyer has a break in his shin bone. He will have a cast up to his mid thigh for at least four weeks and will not be able to walk for now. He might learn to walk as he has to deal with this new burden but he said to expect him to crawl. We somehow have to keep an active toddler boy laying low in the middle of summer fun (including us going to the beach in two weeks!). Any ideas, let me know!

Pray for us as we deal with this inconvenient hassle over the next few weeks. Pray for Sawyer to adjust and pray for his pain level. God is good and we know that this is going to be one of those amazing stories to add to the novel of Sawyer's life and bravery! In fact we have actually been praising God that it's his leg and not his lungs this time, believe me, things could be sooooo much worse!



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Halfway there!

Here's our other little bundle of joy that we are getting SO excited about! I am twenty weeks in a few days and have loved watching my belly grow this time. This pregnancy has been so different and in so many ways it has been so much easier. It's crazy how different your perspective is when you are pregnant with your second baby. I think with Sawyer I struggled with PREpartum depression (my husband and friends can testify to this) and with this pregnancy I have been so incredibly content and happy. I really think it's because I now KNOW how much this new baby is going to mean to us. I am so excited to stretch my love to another child and can't wait to see her grow up. 

Just a few things so I remember.... 

- I am still wearing mostly my non maternity clothes, with the help of a bella band and rubberbands. I found a picture of me at 20 weeks with Sawyer and I actually don't look as big which is relieving! I think Brooklyn might be smaller than her brother was. 

- I am CRAVING and eating a lot of sweet stuff. Cookies, ice cream, key lime pie, nutella and a lot of fruit. 

- I am sleeping so good which is nice since with Sawyer I had insomnia from day one. 

- I am feeling Brooklyn flip and flop and kick up a storm. It's so fun! 

- I definitely have mood swings that have been worse since my 2nd trimester started. Past 9:00 at night I turn into a grump. 

- My one complaint that has been hard the last few weeks is I have had some pretty severe headaches. I have always struggled with headaches and didn't really have them in the first trimester but have had them the last four weeks pretty constantly. My dr just prescribed a new med so hopefully that will take care of it! 

Other than that, my husband is a happy camper too since he feels like he has his normal wife around with this pregnancy. He lost me when I was pregnant with Sawyer so he is pleasantly surprised that this one has been so easy on me. 

I am cherishing my alone time with Sawyer and soaking up his precious life as an only child for the next few months. 

Happy Friday! 

P.S. I'm heading to Austin to love on my new nephew Cooper who was just brought home from Rwanda. I am DYING to meet him and hang out with my sister!