Just Wait

Sorry for the lack of posts. We are not only going through so much but I feel like I have no extra energy to even type. I am so tired these days and I feel like I need to save most of my energy for my energetic two year old. 

I can't go into detail about what all is going on with us but basically the Lord is working on us. We are going through a season of waiting and simply trusting in God's plan. I know that all of us go through seasons where we are called to WAIT in peace and TRUST in God's Sovereignty. In fact, most of you are probably waiting for SOMETHING. Whether it's a big thing or even a small thing like finding out what gender your baby is. I am learning my fair share of what it truly means to trust. Right now I have this verse on my dashboard of my car, "The Lord is my strength and my shield; My heart trusts in Him and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to Him." Psalm 28:7

This verse is a constant reminder of how we are called to live. Sometimes I have to read it over and over and remind myself that I truly believe these things when I am having a down day but God is always good to quickly remind me that, His promises are TRUE. 

Sometimes it's hard to go through seasons like this with a thankful heart. But I find that the days that I choose to look at all the positives and choose to be thankful for everything I end up having a change of heart. 

I have read this poem recently on a few blogs; Blogs where girls are going through hard things in their life, things that I can't imagine dealing with. In what seems like my small insignificant trial this poem has brought me so much perspective and peace. I hope you enjoy it and will remember some of these promises when the "waiting game" seems to be too much to handle. 

Just Wait

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried; quietly patiently, lovingly God replied. I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate, and the Master so gently said, "Child you must wait."

"Wait? you say 'wait'," my indignant reply, "Lord, I need answers. I need to know why! Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard? By faith I have asked and am claiming your Word. My future and all to which I can relate hangs in the balance, and YOU tell me Wait?"

"I'm needing a 'yes,' a go-ahead sign, or even a 'no' to which I can resign. And, Lord, You promised that if we believe we need but to ask and we shall receive. And, Lord, I've been asking! I need a reply!"

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate. As my Master replied once again, "You must wait." So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut. And grumbled to God, "So I'm waiting...for what?"

He seemed, then to kneel, and His eyes wept with mind, and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign. I could shake the heavens and darken the sun. I could raise the dead, cause the mountains to run."

"All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be. You would have what you want, but you wouldn't know ME. You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint; you'd not know the power that I give to the faint. You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair; you'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there; you'd not know the joy of resting in ME, when darkness and silence were all you could see.

You'd never experience the fullness of love as the peace of my spirit descends like a dove; you'd know that I give and I save (for a start), but you'd not know the depth of the beat of my heart, the glow of my comfort late in the night, the faith that I give when you walk without sight, the depth that's beyond getting just what you asked, of an infinite God, who makes what you have LAST.

You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee, what it means that "My grace is sufficient for thee." Yes, your dreams for that loved one overnight would come true, but, oh, the loss...if I lost what I'm doing in you!

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see that the greatest of gifts is to get to know ME. And though my answers seem terribly late, my most precious answer of all is still "WAIT".

Cutie Pie

I can't even stomach that this boy will be 2 in a couple weeks. It seriously breaks my heart that he is turning into a little boy and he is slowly becoming too old to be my baby anymore. 

Sawyer has all of the sudden majorally hit the "2" stage! He is becoming majorally independent, extremely vocal, and overally opinionated. He has decided that he wants to give me a run for my money and I don't know quite what to do with this new child. He is more fun that we even know what to do with and is still my sweet lovable mama's boy (except when we are with "Dae" and "Grandmama"). I go to bed exhausted these days but wake up excited to see what new, funny things this boy is going to surprise me with. Even though I am at a loss with what to do with these fits and screams, I wouldn't change this age for anything! 

Sawyer is doing so good with going to get his shots every week. He has stopped crying on the car rides there and usually even takes a cat nap. Everytime we get to the office he snuggles with me until they call his name and then he usually immediately starts crying but as soon as the shot is over he politely says "Thank You" to the nurse and then happily plays in the office while we have to wait for thirty minutes. Last week we had four doctors appointments and he has started asking everywhere we stop, even if it's the grocery store if there's an "owie". I'll stop the car and he'll yell from the backseat, "owie mama?" and I'll say "no owies here, I promise" and he'll usually go in happily wherever we are. It's so sad to me that "owies" are a constant thing on his mind, it's just becoming second nature to him.

That's all for today, Hope you all have a wonderful spring day!

The Latest

Life is in full force over here! We have so much going on! 

Besides the pregnancy news we also have big news that we are MOVING! We are super excited. We are closing on Thursday and are doing some renovations inside the house so we hope to move at the beginning of April. We are moving into an awesome neighborhood that has a pool, park, great walking trails and so many wonderful families. I am excited about this new change and having a community right where we live! I think that is so important to have when you are a stay at home mom. 

Besides that I feel like our life revolves around doctors appointments and shots. This week alone we will be at the doctor four days in a row, pediatrician, two shot days and his pulmonologist appt tomorrow.  Sawyer came down with fever and an ear infection last week and this weekend which was no fun at all. But we were so thankful for just an ear infection, we can definitely deal with that! I have had him in MDO for a month and he has only been able to go three times because he keeps coming down with stuff. I knew that it would be like this because of all the medicines he has been on this last year and  especially the last two months. I knew that his immunity would be down but I am beyond ready to see him stay well. 

I am definitely still going through a process of figuring out how to feel about everything.The days that he is healthy and "normal" I feel like I could jump out of my skin with gratitude and happiness. And then there are still the days that I have gone through the emotions of feeling lonely, not understood, I've had pity parties, I've had anger, I deal with major anxiety. There are days like last Thursday where we were up all night with a baby who was miserably sick with an ear infection and still had to take him in for a shot Thursday. We drove all the way up there with a 2 year old screaming "no shot! no shot!" and wait to find out that he is wheezing and can't even get a shot. We spent the next twelve hours breaking his wheeze and worrying ourselves sick. Some days I wonder why Sawyer was chosen to be "sick" and unhealthy all the time.. etc. etc.. 

But, then there are days like today when I wake up and dance in the kitchen with my son who woke up healthy today and I remember God's Sovereignty. I remember how God uses EVERYTHING for His Glory and I remember how God has changed our family more in the last two months to be more like He wants us to be and I remember that all of the worry and all of the hassles of this sickness is a GOOD thing. Because it is written in black and white, "We know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28

The truth is, Sawyer is being taken care of and God loves him more than I do (which seems unimaginable) and he has him wrapped up in his hands. Even though there are times when we feel helpless and scared we are constantly reminding ourselves that God is good and He will take care of our son. 

I also know that there are terrible diseases that kids all over the world are dealing with that are far worse and I can't even imagine. I have a whole new perspective when reading sad stories about kids like, Ty and Lucy. My heart and prayers go out to them and I hope you will keep them in your prayers as well. 

Anyway, just wanted to give ya'll an update. I have had so many friends reach out to us asking how we are doing and we are doing great but I like using this blog to be honest with our journey because when someone stops me in passing and asks me "How are ya'll doing?" it's hard for me to go into the full truth. We are definitely on the upside of everything and are so thankful for that but are still looking to God for strength and perseverance. 

Happy Tuesday!! 

Healthy boy!

I know this is so blurry but it is too sweet not to love.

"Are you my Mother?"

Remember this cute book? 

Well my next featured party is by a talented girl named Lori who threw her sister a one of a kind baby shower. She planned the shower around this book because her and her sister grew up reading this and her sister had carried on the tradition by ]reading it to her three boys. Let's just say that this book holds a special place in their family.. We all have those books, right?! 

Wait until you see how Lori pulled this shower off. It turned out so precious!

Lori's husband designed the banner and had it printed out to hang above the table. she used shipping boxes for the stands and wrapped them with ribbon and wrapping paper. 

All of the cupcake wrappers, water labels, napkin rings, food labels, etc.. were designed by her husband! Her husband is a wedding videographer and they own their own company and he is very talented in graphic design. (ww.niloproductions.com)

Hot chocolate bar

Cute, cute, cute diaper cake! 

Lori found a seller on etsy who makes books into journals. The guests got to write messages to the mama and baby in a personalized journal. (Trillium Artisans)

Didn't she do a great job?! I just loved the colors and fun theme. 

Thanks for sharing Lori!!

Here are some other vendors Lori used...

Banner is from Blue Moon Studios

Tissue pom poms from Sweet and Savvy Designs

Cupcake wrappers The Cupcake Social

Big News

Check out my exciting news on my other blog HERE!

I guess this picture makes it pretty obvious! 

All signs point to....

Jalepenos on everything, chocolate milk every night, moody outbursts, crying outbursts, constant nausea, sleep, sleep and more sleep, watching t.v. instead of cleaning and working, carsick even while I'm driving, getting in bed at 7:30 many nights, ooohhh and the growing belly(what the heck, why so soon?!), yep all signs point to one thing!

Baby Henry #2 will be here in October!!!!

This is the only shirt I could find the day I found out the news. Haha! Not the cutest. 

I'm still super early but we had our ultrasound today and baby has a strong heartbeat so we were ready to spread the news. They pushed my due date back to October 28th b/c the baby is measuring small even though that is way off from our original due date. So I thought I was 8 weeks and found out today that I am actually 7 weeks. So the fact that I am already showing scares me even more!! Yikes! 

We are so excited about this new baby and feel beyond blessed. We have been trying for a few months and were thrilled with the news. 

Since Sawyer's latest health stuff, I have been going back and forth emotionally about adding something else to our very full plate. But God has been so good to us in this and in His timing and we have been giddy excited dreaming about this new child that we have been given.

Well, that's the big news of the week! I am sure it is refreshing for all of you to read something exciting and not "asthma" related on this blog. Yay!!!

  

Vintage School Baby Shower

I just love this theme for a shower! The mom to be is a 1st grade school teacher, so the sweet hostesses honored her by throwing a "School" themed shower. Get ready, this one is beyond cute! 

Sarah collected old flash cards and composition notebooks from school, ordered a few things from Etsy, used old children's books and textbooks, and got together some vintage school supplies for the main table.  She also made all of the little signs for the food and water bottle sleeves.  

I love this little detail. Old school pictures of the soon to be mom and dad! Brilliant idea!

Thank you to Kate for sending over this adorable shower and a big Thank you to Sarah Frost (who is responsible for this cuteness) for letting me share! 

Happy Monday!! 

Sawyer and Lyla: Watch their love grow..

 When Mindy and John David moved here after Sawyer was born, Mindy was pregnant with Lyla. We had countless conversations about how we wanted Sawyer and Lyla to be best friends. We knew they would be 6 months apart but we were determined that they would love eachother. Little did we know that they would absolutely ADORE one another without any help from us. It's almost like they are siblings. Daily, Sawyer talks about Lyla. If we get in the car to go somewhere he will always say, "see Lyla?". He is obsessed. The other night we walked into their house and Sawyer ran in the house with a huge smile, saying "LYLA!! There you are" and reached out and they gave eachother the biggest hug. Everytime we get to the light that is close to their house, he'll notice where we are and start screaming Lyla's name and kicking his legs. He knows exactly where we are when we get close to their house. 

Lyla loves Sawyer just as much. She copies everything he does (Sorry Mindy!). Sweet Lyla calls Sawyer, "Sawyou" and it's basically the cutest thing ever. The minute we get them together they immediately start playing hard; They run, laugh, fall down, read books, play the piano and who knows what else. I laugh b/c Mindy and I don't have to pay much attention to them b/c they entertain one another the whole time. I feel like we get a little break when they play, I love it!

Anyway, below you will see Lyla and Sawyer growing up together. I got some pictures from Mindy to add to mine. They have over 70 pictures together! They are destined to be married one day.. haha! We can hope, can't we?

Pretty cute and funny! These two make me smile and I am so glad that Sawyer has this little angel girl to grow up along side with. We love you Lyla! 

Circus Dream

OKay, get ready to DIE! This was sent over by the amazing and super talented, Ali Wood Photography. Her son Hamilton (how cute is that name?!) just turned one and Ali and her mom pulled out all of the stops for his circus themed birthday! This party is so whimsical and fun. No detail was left out and not only is this party styled perfectly it looks like the guests and the birthday boy had a ball. Check out the details...

 Almost everything you see on this table was handmade by Ali and her mother! How cute is the circus train with the banner?! 

The amazing Kim with Tomkat Studio is responsible for the perfect food labels and banner. 

 Are you kidding me?! How adorable are these marshmallow pops??

Ali's mom made this centerpiece out of hat boxes. 

 Yes, that monkey is real! One of the main events of the party was "Mikey" the monkey! Here is what Ali said about Mikey.. "The monkey, named Mikey, was from the neatest lady Pam at Complete Country Carnival. He did tricks, played the drums, jumped thru hoops and took pictures with everyone. He LOVED my dad and kept crawling up on his head. Im not sure if its because he's tall or because he delivers babies but the monkey loved him! (www.countrycarnival.com)"

 Here is the adorable birthday boy! 

Party favors were vintage clown bags filled with a barnum and bailey clown nose that blinks (from the barnum website), cracker jacks and a little clown pin wheel. TomKat Studios made the labels that said "thank you for clowning around with me"

There you have it.... One of the cutest "circus" parties I've seen. Thank you so much Ali for letting me share! 

Happy Wednesday!